05/20/13

For a Monday, this hasn't been the worst of Mondays...but this afternoon has made me feel kinda on edge. 16 more minutes and I can get out of here.

05/16/13 (posted 05/19/13)

It's been a while. I haven't felt like I've had much to say, even those my head is screaming at me, at times. 

Anywoo...this isn't really the place for those things.  I guess I'll leave this with a quote for tonight.

I read this passage the other day in "Tender Is The Night." I wanted to read something else by Fitzgerald...Gatsby was the only thing I've read previously. I bought the book months ago, but was caught up in a bit of Hemingway and smut reading mania. 

Anyway, this passage caught my eye...not that I've ever been in love (Like, yes. Lust, yes. But sadly, I suppose, never love.). It does seem to go through the motions, when observing other people's relations. However, I do like the happier stages best...don't we all?

"They were still in the happier stage of love. They were full of brave illusions about each other, tremendous illusions, so that the communion of self with self seemed to be on a plane where no other human relations mattered. They both seemed to have arrived there with an extraordinary innocence as though a series of pure accidents had driven them together, so many accidents that at last they were forced to conclude that they were for each other."

And although this passage isn't a part of a necessarily ideal situation...or even honorable. It's still a nice feeling to feel a connection of some kind...even if the situation is imperfect, I suppose.

02/17/13

I'm not having a great day today.  General state of wonkiness.  I didn't sleep well.  Once I did sleep, I woke up late.  I felt like half the day was already over.  I wasn't going to shower, but then I did...so, at least I did that much.  I wanted to get lunch with someone, but by the time I got mid-text I deleted it because usually spur of the moment doesn't work out and I don't feel like going far.  Usually formal plans have to be made... I was going to go out by myself, but I can be by myself at home all the same and well...I don't need to be tempted to spend money and I don't need to waste the gas. But, I'll be off Friday for a "super-happy-fun day" with Robin (and Luke Bryan), so I'll just wait until then. I'm going to watch history documentaries and biographies on Netflix... because the programming on TV channels related to those topics are horrendous anymore.  And maybe, eventually I'll feel like eating something more substantial today.

02/14/13: Part 2

I may need to avoid Facebook today - that's already about to make me puke.

02/14/13

Obligatory "Grrr, I hate Valentine's Day post."  Secretly (or not so secretly), I want to love it.

I didn't get yesterday's mail in until this morning.  My mom delivered a card to my mailbox at some point.  I bought myself my box of Dove truffles a couple weeks ago; I got her a box of Dove truffles too (at Christmad she was all about the Dove truffle Christmas tree.  She said she said her valentine's people usually wait until it's too late to buy them and they're sold out...
Kandi got me a white scarf that I've been looking for and some Reese Peanut Butter hearts. YAY.  I'm wearing my scarf and the shirt I want to wear it with tomorrow.  

However, I can't have my chocolate until after Lent though... poor planning on my part.  Oh well.

I had the idea that I was going to make a red velvet poke cake for work, but when I went to buy red velvet mix, I couldn't find any.  I was mainly doing it for one gal who has been working from home...she comes in to work maybe twice a month now.  But then secretly, I was kind of glad that I couldn't find any red velvet cake mix because it's Valentine's Day and it's cliché and I didn't want to be one of those people.

Then I thought about just doing cupcakes... and then I was like NO, I'm not giving in.  I hate Valentine's Day (even though I secretly want to love it).

Newlywed gal on our team is off work today because she wanted to take off for Valentine's Day.  Well, blah to that... (even though I secretly want to do the same thing if I had someone around to spend it with).

Oh well... If you're in love and are all "Yay, Valentine's Day."  Good for you; I'm secretly happy for it.  But I'm going to ignore your happiness and not tell you Valentine's Day.

Happy Thursday.

02/12/13

I haven't had much to say lately, but I haven't given up.

Today's thought:  Sometimes a lady just needs to read a smutty book... and that's what I'm doing.  Thank you, Megan Hart.

01/30/13

I had my right leg laser procedure yesterday.  So, I expect another two weeks of what I experienced with my left leg.  I am starting to tell a difference with my right leg, but it will still take time for things to go away completely.  I'll be glad to get it all done, healed, and able to exercise more vigorously again.  I'll have the next few days off work.  I'll spend my time with TV (history documentaries on the DVR), reading, crafts, and light chores when I need to get up and walk around.  That's about all I have for now.